I reckon if you clicked through to this page, you would like to know a little about me. After all, why would you trust me with your heart? And why should you listen to anything I have to say? So Let me tell you a little about our family and my journey. This is the long version. For the Reader’s Digest Condensed Version, click here.(For the “How I Met My Husband and wound up with Five Kids, and other really boring stuff, click here.)
My husband Don and I have been married since 1982. After a year and two weeks, our first daughter was born. We now have five children, three girls and two boys (in truthfulness and tender consideration, our second born daughter now identifies as a transgender man). They range in age from 30 to 13. We have homeschooled all five of our children, and it has been quite an adventure. Our life has not been dull or boring for one minute- especially the last few years. I thought it was difficult when they were little…..
In 2010, our second daughter Praise, called from another state and confessed that she was gay, and living with a partner. We were shocked, and I really thought if I just prayed hard enough and reasoned with her long enough, she would realize the error of her ways, and turn her heart back to God. Yep. Nope. Didn’t happen.
Then in 2013 Anne, our oldest daughter, met a wonderful gal online and they became fast friends. But before I knew what had happened, they had fallen in love, moved out of the country and gotten married. Why? How? Now what?
But in all this, God showed up. He showed Himself faithful in so many ways. In ways that I could see, and in other ways that I am only now beginning to see. (And I am sure there are more I may never see.) He spoke truth into to my heart as I spent time in his Word daily in my garden, which became His garden of grace.
And He has answered some of my questions. But I had to first learn to ask the right ones. He showed me how His grace is sufficient to walk this road and how His grace covers me. And them. He is teaching me how to be thankful, not only in all things, but FOR all things. Even this. I am learning how to extend mercy, even in the midst of my pain. And He has replaced my fear with joy unspeakable. And He can and will do the same for you.
I still believe homosexuality is a sin. And Jesus had to die for that sin. But I can truly say that I have learned how to place my hope in Him, and love my girls fiercely, while letting God take care of the rest. I don’t really know where He is going with all this. If I did, I wouldn’t have to trust Him. And I am ok with that. As long as I can walk along side Him and rest in His peace while He leads, I know everything will work out for His glory. And thats good enough of a promise for me.
So take heart, my friend. And rest. Let Him carry it for you. Surely he took up our griefs and carried our sorrows…he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him. And by his stripes, we are healed. Isaiah 53:4a-5