I Always have more plans than I have time for. And when a computer glitch causes a hiccup in addition to my normal crazy, unpredictable life, it usually causes me to get frustrated, feel sorry for myself, and make my little world fall down. I know it shouldn't, but my little world is so fragile sometimes I just can't hold it together. But God is still teaching me how to trust him and often the smallest things teach me the greatest lessons.
And He has spoken clearly and deeply these last few days. And I am in grateful awe. So while I feel like I have been overly busy and "overly whelmed", I also feel overly blessed. But there is still more. Still more He wants to teach me about being still and knowing- knowing I AM in the present, and in the presents. There is still a disconnect for me. I still have difficulty holding Him close, and not getting distracted with the trappings and trimmings. But again, God is still teaching. It just seems like I am such a slow learner!
If you have been following the last few days, you know I have been learning a lot about being still and knowing, and how I AM is With Us. Immanuel.
Today is no exception. Yesterday I found out some difficult news about one of my far-away children. And it is hard to put my head around. But because He has had me in school for the past few months, it was easier to get in my seat in His Classroom than doing my usual pacing around in my heart trying to hear Him over the noise of my hard beating heart. I have been able to quiet myself so I can rest in Him and hear His voice.
Out of "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young He clearly spoke, " Make Me the focal point of your search for security...When you rprivate world feels unsteady and you grop My hand for support, you are living in conscious dependence on Me. ...rejoice that trouble can highlight your awareness of My Presence."
And the verse that went with it is: So do not fear, for I am with you; (did you get that? I AM WITH YOU!!) Do not be dismayed, for I am you God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.Is.41:10
There was more, too. But suffice it to say that I remembered. I recounted. And He is having the victory right now. Although my heart wants to sink; wants to turn to 'false gods' for comfort (chocolate, anyone? which I am not allowed to have right now- for very good health reasons) I will rest. I will be still like I know I should be and remember He is With Me. And He reminded me that He never does something half-way. So I have to rest. Which I am still figuring our how to do. But again, He is faithful to show me if I am willing to learn.
How about you? What is the hardest aspect of living like Christ in your life right now? I'd love to know that there is someone else out there that struggles.
On another subject, We have been doing #ouradventcheer almost every day, which has kept my mind busy and heart full. Follow us @damazingmama #ouradventcheer as you have time. One thing I can say, is that life around here is never dull!